OK I went to work today and was in a good mood until i arrived there. I got into work about 6:30 - 7 am this morning. As the 52 bus was fast approaching the 5000 block of 14th street i just felt that day was not gonna be a good one. I got to work and no one where there yet. I tired to beat everyone to work so I can go in my office and hide out for along as possible. I got into my office and saw my green light was lit up. I looked over at the phone and I had 10 messages on my phone waiting for me to hear. I was like damn I was only gone for one day; Friday I took off to have a day to myself. Well as i was dialing in my code to hear my messages I was also logging on to my computer to check my email and get my day started. As I was listening to the messages I was like WTF. I opened up outlook to see I had 30 messages coming in. Not only did they leave me a message on my voicemail they also backed it up with emails. I got messages coming out my ass. I didn't bother to read any of them I just looked at them and I had to pray for god to help me today. Then my cover was blown, I was like shit in my mind. Next thing comes out of the person mouth is we need a set up in the great room. I was like OK. I work in the IT dept so I am always needed, but not this much neediness.
I found that I work with some of the most incompetent people around. Well not allot of people just like maybe 20% of the people I work with need something every minute of the day. And it is just simple stuff. I have people that call me on how to work website, how to transfer a call from there phone to another phone, how to work email, I need my computer fixed it wont work ( well if you plug it in stupid it would), I need this, I need that and most of the stuff is minor. Things that a 4 year old can figure out. I am like geez, take notes so you wont blow up my phone again for something I just showed you how to do.
Monday's seem to be the worst day of the week. I was off relaxing and I come into chaos. I can never seem to have a day off and come back to work and things be fine. I really want to find another job, but for some reason I really love what I do and for who i do it for. Don't get me wrong I am complaining now that is cause I am tired of it. But some days it does feel good to be wanted. LOL But not that much. For me I think it is that I have so many titles and not enough time to for fill these titles. I write student schedules, train new staff, train old staff, fix computers, maintain the intranet, maintain the EE database, make badges for all new hire, fix the phones, make sure everything is backed up, plus other things. I felt like I was writing my resume I had to stop. But you get the just of it. I think I am also tried of working from home. I have been working from home for the past 2 months now while also working there also. It is hard on me. Some days I don't even want to do the work cause I am so tired. I need a big break, a vacation. I hope I am not putting anything in the atmosphere with this vacation thing. Nah but serious I need a vacation where i can just go and do my thing. If I only had the money but that is another post. Well I just hope tomorrow is betta than today. I know it will i have god on my side.
8/25/08
8/19/08
I wish
I know someone can relate to this. There you are standing there chillin and all of a sudden you see this fine ass shawty coming your way. You standing on the block waiting for him to just past you by. But you just watch and not say nothing hoping he will turn back and say sup. But he continues to walk. Just wish you could walk up to him and find out his deal and not get all angry and up in his feelings. Being like yo i dont go that way you fuckin faggot. So in order for that not to happen what do you do?
As for me I would never do that on the street. I would have a casual conversation, but nothing serious. There is are so many times I wish I could just reach out like that and get a dudes number, but we just be cool like that. I miss the straight dudes i use to hang out with. We would just chill and do those straight boy activities, u know pool, video games, 42o all day, basketball, nfl, and just straight chillin. The funny thing bout it is when we would go out i would get all the girls attentions. The guys would be like you gay and you can get girls why dont you switch. I would just laugh it off. They knew the deal and was very confortable being around me. I would never hit on them, try to so call change them, nor did i want to be with any of them well except one but that isnt gonna be told. Next LOL Not to say that the friends I have now arent cool to hang out with I just wish they would be a little more adventurous and not do everything gay. Yeah its cool to do some gay things but not all the time.
I was on the bus today and this guy sat across from me i checked him out from head to toe. God he was so sexy his swagger was on point, and he checked me out to. I wasnt lookin right today just ordinary lol. Yes I do have those days. LIke tomorrow. But I knew he wanted to say something but i put my music on and he could hear it cuse he was boppin his head. I was lke damn my music was that loud. I had on some Usher and I played my song Here I stand and will work for love my 2 favorite love songs of 08 besides Mariah songs they are in all year long.
Well he got off the bus and checked me out from the window I was like damn another time another place. If only these dudes would step up on the plate. I would let them know the deal. I could give them the code like they did on COVER. Such a good ass movie, but funny and serious in alot of ways. Check it out very good I'll talk about that in another blog. But anyways I think they feel intimadated cuse I am like 6'6" tall. Guys get scared of that, plus I dont carry myself like I get down. So how does one put themselves out there but not all the way out there? I feel like I am at a cross road sometimes.
As for me I would never do that on the street. I would have a casual conversation, but nothing serious. There is are so many times I wish I could just reach out like that and get a dudes number, but we just be cool like that. I miss the straight dudes i use to hang out with. We would just chill and do those straight boy activities, u know pool, video games, 42o all day, basketball, nfl, and just straight chillin. The funny thing bout it is when we would go out i would get all the girls attentions. The guys would be like you gay and you can get girls why dont you switch. I would just laugh it off. They knew the deal and was very confortable being around me. I would never hit on them, try to so call change them, nor did i want to be with any of them well except one but that isnt gonna be told. Next LOL Not to say that the friends I have now arent cool to hang out with I just wish they would be a little more adventurous and not do everything gay. Yeah its cool to do some gay things but not all the time.
I was on the bus today and this guy sat across from me i checked him out from head to toe. God he was so sexy his swagger was on point, and he checked me out to. I wasnt lookin right today just ordinary lol. Yes I do have those days. LIke tomorrow. But I knew he wanted to say something but i put my music on and he could hear it cuse he was boppin his head. I was lke damn my music was that loud. I had on some Usher and I played my song Here I stand and will work for love my 2 favorite love songs of 08 besides Mariah songs they are in all year long.
Well he got off the bus and checked me out from the window I was like damn another time another place. If only these dudes would step up on the plate. I would let them know the deal. I could give them the code like they did on COVER. Such a good ass movie, but funny and serious in alot of ways. Check it out very good I'll talk about that in another blog. But anyways I think they feel intimadated cuse I am like 6'6" tall. Guys get scared of that, plus I dont carry myself like I get down. So how does one put themselves out there but not all the way out there? I feel like I am at a cross road sometimes.
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