chance

How man chances should you give someone until they get it right? Should it be one two three four five I mean damn how many times does it take. If i give you only one time to get it right am I wrong for not doing that. I mean I just gave you two and u still havent learned. But I know I am wrong for continuing to except that fact that we make plans and you cancel at the last minute when i could have done something betta. Yeah i said betta cuse u play this game of up and down side to side and I am getting tired of it. And you wonder why i wont date u or be your 1 cuse of this. Yeah u say we just friends well the friends i have would never cancel on me at the last minute. Your reason was not valet cuse u knew up til yesterday what was so called good. I have given u 3 chances to get it right and u still do the same. So 2008 is coming and i wont be giving u anymore chances. New year new things and new chances but none for u.

Loser

Why do i attract losers? It is like they flock my way. And when I dismiss them they get mad. Why the hell would anyone want to be with a loser. I bet you wonder what do i consider a loser. We have all had them in our lives. In other words LEACHES. It seems like 99% of the brothas in dc are either losers leaches or both. I wish I could see the L's on there foreheads b4 I get close. But as usual I dont see them until it is to late. And by then I am pissed off with myself for not realizing it. Well I think I realize that is why i put them at bay when they come at me with there foolishness. Asking for money come on i am selfish with my money. I aint giving u shit unless your name is sha lisa rob kevin john marquis london carlos or brandon. The rest of these bums out here can go kick rocks. I dont understand why dudes meet u and think they gonna get something for free come one know duh. Everyone has a price and mine is u aint getting shit. How do u think I wouldnt know your game come on i am 37 wise beyond my years and game knows game. I am not desperate to deal with these leaches i met to just say yes. I know there are some guppies in the world but guess what i am not one of them. So for all you dudes who think you can run game on me come again.

what should i do

I have this dude who I am cool with. I would say we are some what friends. Well we have been talking and chillin since spring time. He is very attractive kat. Some what my type. He has that masculine tall top swagger going on. He recently told me that he likes me and wants to kick it with me. I am so lost on what to do. Part of me says give him a chance and the other part says no just stay his friend. I had a list of pros and cons and they both weigh the same. God i am so attracted to him and he is just soft as pie sometimes. We are suppose to go out on friday night and see sup on this level. I just have all these expectations; bad things of course of things that could possible go wrong. I know i should think positive about the situation but things like this never seem to work out the way i want them to. Yeah i am making it all about me cuse yes part of it should. I have all these walls up that he says i should just let go and take down. But dealing with folks around here sometimes u have to put them up. He keeps telling me he wont hurt me but i just be like aight or un huh. He was dating someone for about a couple of months there and he kept pressing to be with me. He would say yeah i like him but it is u i want to be with. I would be like yeah right and play with him and he would get so mad at me. We are going on a date on friday. Just to see how it goes. I am gonna try to keep an open mind about this like he wants me to. But who knows. I'll keep ya updated.

my weekend pt 3

I have this friend and he was having an xmas party on sunday so he invited me. I asked him if he needed any help setting up that is what a cool friend is suppose to do. He said yeah. So i got fresh as always. Looking the part of thug model. I decided to go and chill out at his spot. He his is tight 4 level house in the brookland area. VEry well put together. Him and his lover live there been going on 4 years now. Both of them are very cool.

Well folks started getting there around 830 or so. I was downstairs watching the deadskins beating the viking. Man i hope they dont get a superbowl shot but if they do they have to come our way and they wont win, But anyways. I had a really good time. I meet a couple of cool dudes. I had so many dudes try to holla at me it was funny. But as always none of them were my type. Alot of drawfs in the spot. lol and u know how i feel about that. NO shorties and no bottoms. Man i wish there was a way i dude could figure out that i am bottom. Or at least vers. Shit i have my top moments. lol But i had more bottoms fem dudes and white dudes try to holla at me. None of the above is my type. But as the night went on I was so smoked out. My boy came in the room and was like here he gave me a bag of weed and said roll it up. I rolled about 4 js while in the room. Dudes was coming in and i was chillin in the corner taking it all in. Yeah they were like why u so quiet i was like cuse i have nuffin to say. When i am in a new spot or there is a crowd of folks that i dont know i get in my zone and become this watcher. I observe everything that is going on. I just chill out. While in that room dudes was trying there best to get at me and none of them came close. Everyone kept asking me if i had a man and why i was single what kind of things i like doing. All the things that every dude ask me that i never give an answer to only if i am interested. So like i said b4 no one had a chance. That whole night i just chilled and stayed to myself. He told me after the fact that i could bring anyone. But sometimes i do my best work by myself. Well the party ended at about 2. My boy told me i could stay but i left and went home. I decided to walk home and it gave me a time to think. I am about 30 min walk from his house to mine. Right across new york ave.

On my way home. I was thinking. U know another year with out someone to chill with. Out of everything all I really want is a chill partna. Someone who i can be friends with chill with go places with and if the time is right we get down like that and maybe become more. But finding is so hard now a days especially around here. We all have our agendas even i do but dudes are so disrepectful and hurtful around here. I have been thinking of relocating to a new state. I have been reaching out to god for that to show me where to relocate to.

But i got home took off my clothes and relaxed on my couch til i feel asleep. Man what a weekend.

my weekend pt 2

Well saturday came and I told one of my best friends that i was gonna help him move into his new spot. Plus I got some benefits out of it. He was getting rid of his furniture so he gave it to me. I am so thankful for him. He not only gave me the furniture. Well i am giving him money for it. But that is cool and at a really good baragin. But anyways. He also gave me so much food. I was just about to go grocey shopping and I end up doing that at his spot. I really like his condo it is hot. 2br open lay out and a huge kitchen. Perfect spot for a newlywed couple. But i also met his future " roommate" lol well J was very polite and i liked his new spot. It is house and a really great area of laurel. I have visited the area he is in now just cant remember how. I am so proud of my dawg right now. He has a plan laid out and is going for everything that he wants. Well after helping him out and his father bring me my furniture and stuff ( Thanks sir i appriecate that) I came home and went to sleep. I was knocked out til the next day.

Thank Los for all that you have done for me I really appriecate it.

my weekend pt 1

I have been talking to dude online for a minute. He seem real cool so we exchanged numbers. We were texting back and forth. That seems to be new thing on cell phones. So he asked me out on friday for dinner. Now this is the first time me meeting this kat face to face. So i put on my hood preppy out fit and my fresh sneaks on and went down to gallery place to meet him. We decided to go out to dinner to this resturant called the Matchbox 20. It is one hot resturant. Very over crowded but cool atomsphere. Well we had to wait for a table so we decided to go to starbucks and get coffee. I dont like to sit in starbucks i rather get my starbucks and walk around. So we walked around gallery place and just talked. He is a very nice and cool dude but not my type. He is gonna be a cool friend i can talk to. But I wouldnt date him. Dinner was cool and all. There brick oven pizza is hot. I really liked it alot. I would go there again. Once we got done we went walking round dc. Well we were just chillin and this dude tried to holla at me on the sly while i was this kat. I dont like stuff like that especially if u are on a so called date with someone. And i dont like dudes to psst at me and or scream at me from far away. It is all about your game and how u come at me. And i dont want u coming at me like no bitch either. I like dudes who come at me like a man should come at another man. WITH RESPECT!!! So I just carried on and the kat i was with asked me if i knew him. I was like nah. And he also noticed the other dudes trying to get me while i was with him. But they all did it on sly. That has never happen to me. When I go out with other dudes; dudes stay away from me. Like when i go out with homie brandon everyone thinks we are a couple especially when we step into rnr.

Well he wanted to go to the movies and i just wanted to go home and rest since i was up at 5 in the morning and at work all day. So I left him and went home and chilled out til the next day. He is a very nice guy just not my type of dude to date. First of all he is a bottom what we gonna do together. Nuffin but be friends. Second of all i have a height restriction. I am not into shorty dudes. Alot of tall brothas like short dudes well not this one. U must be 6 feet or tall to even think about me getting your attention o nthe dating level. And u must be masculine. That is requirement. Meaning if we walking down the street i dont want the dudes looking at both of us thinking fags. And that is hard to find in the dc area. But other than that I am flexible, in more ways than one. lol