I want to talk about something that hit home today. Two the students that I know at the school I work for was exspell today because of drugs. Last week one of your student were suspended because he came to school drunk off his ass. I am like what is going on with our black youth of today. I am one of the realist faculty member they have at the school. Except for the other 3 black males we have working for us. I asked one of my other students about him and the first thing out of the students mouth was everyone is all snitchen. I would never snitch on my homie. I told him your homie. What do u call a homie. A homie nowadays is only there when they need something. So u tellin me that you would go to jail for your homie while your homie is running around free. I alike that would be stupid for u to do that. To ruin the rest of your life for a mistake. He told me yeah cuse he is my homie. I am like the same folks u know now u wont know when u get my age. He was like that is you i know i am still gonna be around the same the folks i am around now. I looked at him and laughed. He is so young. These kids of today just seem to not understand what they do now will effect them later on in life.
Most of the kids are so money hungry cuse of what they see on the tv. I tell them material things dont make you as a person. Just as fast as you get them as fast as they can be taken away. They see these so called rappers and tv stars and dont realize that it took alot of work for them to get that status. They should look at Mike Vick and T.I and see what has happen to them. They think going to jail will make u someone. Yeah it will make you someone alright the niggas bitch while you in jail and your new name will be a number. U cant do what u want to do u have to listen to other folks tell you what to do all day. No freedom. U cant watch tv when u want u cant stay up or roam the earth. You are behind bars 23 hours a day. A small ass cell with a cellmate who u may like or may not. The social aspects of jail is when u go u become famous when u come out. I dont want that social status on me. Once u get it u will have it for life and i wont be taken away. They will judge u on that. Even if u change your life and become and good person someone is always gonna judge you for being in jail.
Our blk brothas need betta role models than rappers. Where are all blk entrepreneur's at; and I dont mean the dudes standing on the corner either. I always said god put me here for a reason to show these kids that being a young blk man you can succeed.
10/17/07
10/8/07
Why am I single
I have been thinking a lot lately why I can't find a dude to be with. I know I am very picky. I have met dudes online and the dudes I meet are just so lame, or the lie, or just plain not my type.
So I sat down this weekend and wrote down what my type is.
1. Masculine
2. Goal oriented
3. Not materialistic
4. Understanding
5. Truthful/honest
6. Open minded
7. Caring
8. Can cook
9. Independent
10. Common ground
11. Sports fans
Now that I wrote that I also wrote down the dudes that I meet.
1. Dudes that base love on what you have material wise
2. Fem
3. Serial Daters (Yeah Los I am using your word) lol
4. Users
5. Crazies
6. Have nothing in common with
7. Stalker
8. Lame ones
I took both list side by and side and then I evalutored myself and see where I fit into the mix. I learned that I know i wont get all the top 11 things I am asking for but can I at least get 5. LOL I dont know where to go meet guys at. I seem to have more in common with straight dudes than gay dudes but there is on way I am gonna be with a straight dude. He wouldnt be straight if he was with me. For some reason in this area it is hard to settle down and be with one dude. I have tried everything and guys assume alot about me without evening knowing me. The same dudes I try to holla at when I go out the club which is hardly are the same dudes that shot me down. But when they see me online those same dudes come at me. I am gonna put this out there and i really dont care. But i am a masculine bottom. Mos dude look at me and think I am a top til I tell them different. I shouldnt have to tell a dude when I meet him on the street ohh by the way I am a bottom so they will holla back. But those same dudes when they do find out are all up in my face but they only want some ass so I put them on my DNC list (do not contact). LOL Mos dudes in dc are all about sex. I know i have had my share of one night stands, but i finally grew up and decided I wanted more.
I have 2 homies in my life and both of them say i dont give guys chances. Well how many chances should I give a dude before he gets it right. I have this attitude of I dont need you. I get that from all the hurt and pain I have had in my life. I am very strong willed independent guy and some guys cant deal with that part of me. I know what i want and to guys that shows a sign of he is aint weak so I cant get my way with him. Meaning they want a dude to run all over and that aint me at all. My boys be telling me sometimes i have to give up the control. Well I have done that and all I got was hurt. So know I just hold my head up and keep on moving on. I try not to let the single life get me down but it gets lonely sometimes when i go to bed at night. But that is life so I take it with a grain of salt and move on.
So I sat down this weekend and wrote down what my type is.
1. Masculine
2. Goal oriented
3. Not materialistic
4. Understanding
5. Truthful/honest
6. Open minded
7. Caring
8. Can cook
9. Independent
10. Common ground
11. Sports fans
Now that I wrote that I also wrote down the dudes that I meet.
1. Dudes that base love on what you have material wise
2. Fem
3. Serial Daters (Yeah Los I am using your word) lol
4. Users
5. Crazies
6. Have nothing in common with
7. Stalker
8. Lame ones
I took both list side by and side and then I evalutored myself and see where I fit into the mix. I learned that I know i wont get all the top 11 things I am asking for but can I at least get 5. LOL I dont know where to go meet guys at. I seem to have more in common with straight dudes than gay dudes but there is on way I am gonna be with a straight dude. He wouldnt be straight if he was with me. For some reason in this area it is hard to settle down and be with one dude. I have tried everything and guys assume alot about me without evening knowing me. The same dudes I try to holla at when I go out the club which is hardly are the same dudes that shot me down. But when they see me online those same dudes come at me. I am gonna put this out there and i really dont care. But i am a masculine bottom. Mos dude look at me and think I am a top til I tell them different. I shouldnt have to tell a dude when I meet him on the street ohh by the way I am a bottom so they will holla back. But those same dudes when they do find out are all up in my face but they only want some ass so I put them on my DNC list (do not contact). LOL Mos dudes in dc are all about sex. I know i have had my share of one night stands, but i finally grew up and decided I wanted more.
I have 2 homies in my life and both of them say i dont give guys chances. Well how many chances should I give a dude before he gets it right. I have this attitude of I dont need you. I get that from all the hurt and pain I have had in my life. I am very strong willed independent guy and some guys cant deal with that part of me. I know what i want and to guys that shows a sign of he is aint weak so I cant get my way with him. Meaning they want a dude to run all over and that aint me at all. My boys be telling me sometimes i have to give up the control. Well I have done that and all I got was hurt. So know I just hold my head up and keep on moving on. I try not to let the single life get me down but it gets lonely sometimes when i go to bed at night. But that is life so I take it with a grain of salt and move on.
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