My weekend was da bomb

Wow what a weekend. I was a lil upset friday after all the things that went down between my supposely new job and my old job, but i dont want to talk about that cuse everytime i think about it i have to take a deep breath and pray to god. Well my homie Los went out to halo on friday night and asked me to meet him down there. I have only been to halo one other time and that was for happy hour and it was aight. I decided to get out and not stay home and be depressed. So i got dressed and decided to take an adventure. Well I took the metro down there and was aight. I got off the bus and was walking down the street and all i saw was gay dudes all over the place on 14th street. I am like damn is there a gay convention going on somewhere. As i was walking down the street i had some queens pass me checkin me out. I continued on my way. I finally go to halo. When I walked in I was like damn wall to wall brothas. I was making my way through the crowd and brothas were all up in my face say sup and going ohh honie child there usually queen things which i dont like. So i finally got to the back of the crowd and saw Los. I was so happy to see him. I met all the dudes he hangs out with and that he has talked to me about. And they all were nice. I figured i was gonna get attitude but none of them was like that. So as the night progressed I just watched the faggies do there things. I just stood there and only talked to los. I am not to much of a mingler. I usually just stay to myself til someone with intelligents say something of interest. All of los's friends were enjoying themselves and of course I wasnt. The one thing i hate are protentious and stuck up fags and most of the dudes there were. A bunch of gym rats and judgemental homos. I had guys node at me trying to get up and trust me i paid them no attention.

I dont like fem dudes. For some reason they think cuse i am 6'6" tall I am gonna want some sissy on my arm. That is a NO!!! I am a gay man who likes other MEN not men who want or act like a sissy. Masculinity is a must not a plus. U feel me?

Well after the bar los and i left and went to go get something to eat and chill out. He is like one of my only 2 friends that i hang out with. Yeah I chill with very small crowds not one to have folks all up in my bizness.

Well saturday came and I had a good ass time. I have been talked to this dude for a minute. He invited me over to his house. I brought a case of Henikens, 360 controller, and he had the 420. Yeah I bought a 360 about 3 weeks ago and I cant stop playing it. Well he cooked me dinner, we chilled out and played 360 all night long. He beat me in madden 07 and 08 twice once i got the hang of it i was kicking his ass. lol We also played saint rows which is my favorite game and some other games. I was there til like 4 am. Luckily he lives on the Capitol Hill like me so I had my ipod on and walked home. I got home and crashed. Well I called him first to let him know I got home safely. He wanted me to stay the night but i didnt like that idea especially not knowing him like that. Well on sunday he called me and asked what i was doing i told him i am about to start cooking dinner. He was like damn I dont even get an invite. I started laughin and said i was gonna call u to see sup. He was playing video games and chillin. He came over we watched the redskins game. I was rooting for the NYG to whip the skins and they did in the end and i wouldnt let him forget it. lol Well he stayed for most of the night we watched desperate housewives one of my favorite shows and watched family guy the open season which was off the hook. He left around midnight and we were standing on the front and he gave me a kiss. I was so shy and was like well i c sup. He smiled and called me once he got home and we talked til I fell asleep. He is a nice guy but i told him that we should only be friends for right now. I am very much attracted to him, but he told me he is moving to ATL in 2 months. I told him i wont get that close since you are moving and he was a lil upset and didnt understand why. And i told him my reason and he understood so i know have a new cool 360 friend. lol

I need a prayer

Man my day was not so good. I was late to work. Left early cuse of family stuff. Well what i thought was family stuff. I found out my nephew has to have his eye operated on. I am so worried about him. He has juvnile diabetes so sometimes it will effect your eyes. I hope he doesnt go blind. Well if he does i will be there every step of the way. I saw this woman yesterday who was blind and she had her cane but couldnt get of the gate. Uknow no one helped her out at all i was on my way out of the gate and i proceeded to help her while other folks just stood there and stopped. Sup wit people now a days. They look but wont help. I felt so bad for her. If that was to happen to me i would feel so helpless not like i feel that way now sometimes.

I went and got my supposed letter today and it wasnt what i expected. I should just learn by now never expect anything cuse what u expect never comes like it is suppose to. Man I need god right now. The devil is always around trying to start shit. He is always waiting to lash out on me. Man I need a prayer and so does my lil man. I love you john u know i got your back.

Another day

Here I am at work thinking bout my new job. Man I cant wait to start. It is like a something that i have always wanted and cant wait to start. I have been trying to close out stuff so when i leave i wont have much to do. I told a few people today that i have a new job and they were a lil upset cuse i was leaving. One person told me money isnt everything. And of course it was a europen who is a high up who makes 6 figures. And my respond was of course money isnt everything but why should i stay in the same position not making what i am worth. They asked how much I was making and said well u know the more money you make the more problems you have. And i was like what problems do u have cuse i know u make 6 figures. I also told them that i am trying to buy a house and i cant afford to do that making the money i make here i would have to take a second job. they said well u should do that cuse we really need you here. I was like if yal really needed me here then you guy would have paid me what i am worth since i am so needed. And of course it always come back to that same ole thing we dont have it in the budget. And my response was well that is why you losing me cuse of the budget have a nice day.

Folks just dont understand that you need more to survive if u dont have u are always gonna be the last and i refuse to be last. God has granted me the opportunity of a life time and i refuse to let it go by. It seems like everyone I know is being blessed this week. I tell folks all the time the power of god can do wonders only if u believe.

God has blessed me

Wow is all i can say right now. I was on my way home yesterday when I got the phone call that changed my life today. I got a new job. Hurray!!! About 2-3 weeks ago I went to this job fair in dc. I went into work late just to see sup. As i was walking round looking at all the folks and jobs they had to offer nothing really caught my eye except for 2 places. Well both of those places were job placements agencies. So as I continued walking around see other places and picking up applications for my brotha I came across this one spot. I asked if they had any IT jobs available.
The woman at the booth as what experience I had as I reached out to hand her one of my resumes. I told her i had experience in web development and databases. That day at the job fair i talked to 3 people and they were very impressed with me. About 2 weeks after that I received a phone call to come in for an interview. I went in for my interview and after that I didnt think anything of it til yesterday when they call to offer me the job. I had tears of joy coming down my face. I thanked god as always. If it wasnt for him I wouldnt be where I am today. I just have one problem how do I tell my boss that I am leaving. I love her so much she is like a mom to me. But other than that I am happy happy and more happy.

I feel like a slave

Man another day at work. Sometimes I wish i had a million dollars cuse i would tell them to kiss my you know what. I have never been at a place where they over work u under pay you and expect you to work for free. Com on now who works for free. All the high ups want you to work over time but not pay you while they sit at home on the weekend with there families. Dont you think i want to do the same. Man life is crazy. My mom use to tell me that life is gonna be hard for a blk man like you and i never knew why. I would ask her why and she said when you get older you shall see. She would tell me how smart i was and folks will use that to there advantage. I would be like yah right mom stop playing now i have to eat my words. I ask god everyday for strength to deal wit the crap that i deal with here. A bunch of unappreciate europeans. And when i say europeans you know what i am talking bout. Well back to be slave. lata