10/26/09

Trust

I was watching this show and this woman said,

"Trust is not a feeling it is something that is earned not with your words but what you do."

It got me to wondering can trust be a feeling or is it something that can be earned? Or can you earn a feeling of trust? I think trust is a feeling that is earned because you earn that feeling of trust. I bet you wondering what that means. Well first of all you are not gonna trust someone right off the bat well except god I trust him with all my whole heart and soul. They are gonna have to earn it right. Well in order for them to earn u are gonna have a feeling whether or not to give it to them. So it is a feeling that is earn. You earn the feeling with there words or by what they do.

10/25/09

ITS A WRAP!!! - I was a rebound guy

I havent written a blog in so long. I am gonna start writing something at least once a week. I have to get back in the grind of this. Well today we gonna talk about my break up.



I was seeing this dude for awhile now. We were the best of friends. I knew his family for so long. He chased me and chased me and finally I said sure. Things well I thought were going great. Then one day he left my house and disappeared. He wrote me an email telling me he got back with this his ex. That I shouldnt be mad that he misses me and loves me. I was like ok an email break up. Well i wrote him back telling that I hope it works out for him. To be honest I hoped it didnt. Well a few weeks ago we finally saw each other, he was on his way to his new job and I was on my way home. We got into a serious arguement. I said some down right mean things. I want you to feel the pain that I feel. Well last nite we saw each other. When he saw me he hugged me so tight that he didnt want to let go. So we talked and I told him how I felt betrayed and hurt. I told him that I will always be his friend no matter what tiffs we got into, but that what we had will never be again. He was telling me how everything was failing around him. The reason why he left was to find himself. I was like ok. He told me he missed me and he still loves me. I told him that we can be friend. He said thats it and i said yeah. Right at that moment I felt everything was 100% over. That I can finally move on and go on with my life and find someone who is gonna be with me and not run back to there ex. I finally knows what it felt like to be a rebound guy cuse that was me.

Now thats it over. We will still be friends but nothing more. I can finally concentrate on what matters the most me.